awareness makes you know everything

awareness makes you know everything

reality forget

i’ve been wondering i

why do i always wonder

why do i always forget

what i knew

remember

what i forgot

why do i always start all over

i choose to kill myself

to build myself

but all that i build

i kill

why do i keep killing myself

why do i have to

shed skin too often

why the air always startles my skin

ruffles my feathers

itch burn

makes me wanna

rip myself out

why can’t i stop loving myself

can’t remove myself

it’s not like

i love myself enough to let myself live