i will not start with a question

i will start with a deep breath

exhale very slowly

then take a new one

this time feeling more intensely

what enters

what lingers

what lingers is what has been

and what has been is

well i do not know

it has been many manner of things

some unspeakable

though i'm a writer, it's my job to put a light on all that's casted

but you wouldn't believe what i tasted

i won't test my tasker

but dip gracefully to the waters i dipped

but i will do it for the first time

even if i've done it a hundred times

i don't know what to say

weight of it no longer weighs

weight of it no longer hurts

i remain submerged

i remain submerged not forgotten

rotten became food i'm a spotter

i don't know how to conclude

this feud brewed for many moons