i fear not suffering

they fear pain
i fear not suffering
i fear getting lost in pain
getting swallowed by darkness
not being able to feel
suffer
die yet keep breathing

the moment i stop feeling
i no longer will know
all the good
yes, i know a lot of pain
yes, i suffer a lot
i suffer because i know the good feeling
and i haven’t forgotten it

i forgot a lot of things
i forget a lot of things
but this
this is something i’ll never forget
i suffer
because if i don’t
you will

at times when i don’t suffer
i still suffer
as i meet someone
who doesn’t
black holes
a whole vast of nothingness
swallowing all the light
echoing all the darkness

i suffer
i fall
very slowly
with no gravity
i bear your pain
your sins
falling into the nothingness
in your black hole

yet i remember
how i ended up there in the first place
heading to a distant light
and looking down at your pit
feeling uneased
and i jumped
and i fell
i keep falling
i keep falling
until i feel all your pain
free up space
so i can fill it
with the previous light i’ve touched
before i fell into you