i hate that i

i hate that i

always use i

i contemplate on the best way of thinking

best way to start

whether it’s with us

things

life

i

us sounds too preachy

i never taken seriously of those that says us instead of me

what it does is

it spooks off the invited

bad hospitality

one’s supposed to make one see

one has to look inward to see

one has to feel liberated to be

to think

one has to see

what one has to offer

to use it on themselves

therefore i

will always use i

as i

experience life

through

my own eyes

there has been a storm in my mind

i wanted to write

had a lot to say

but now i see

everything is how it’s supposed to be

it’s life

and i

i

and i

i

and i

i

i always wanted to

die

i always

hugged

many times i’ve been hugged

but for all the times i have not

i wanted to die

to hug the pretty death that awaits me

and i can become eternity

in a child’s eyes

that will hug his child

and that will hug his child

and that will hug his child

and everyone i hugged shall embrace me

in the holy arms of death

where we all lay together

separated from

those that can’t be killed

plastic

lifeless

fake entities

separated from

those unworthy

those unwelcomed

those that hasn’t lived

those that can’t be killed

those that are merely effects of the passing seasons

and the tolling of the bells

reminders of death

reminder of

how little

you’ve been hugged

how little

you’ve lived

how little

you’ve played

how little

you’ve jumped

at the arms of death

and not hugged it

or it didn’t hug you

cause you hadn’t hugged enough for the

last and eternal embrace

the bells

the doomed bells

you’re not hugged

you haven’t hugged

the bells

know the warmth of other arms

and meet them in my arms

where we will

be

where i

will be me

where you will be

you

where i could proudly say i

knew you

knew of your courageous acts

knew of you

taking on a competition

which one of us will hug more

when i asked you what’s the point

you told me

i’m inexperienced

in hugging

my life had been pretty empty

until this day

where i decided that

i

will embrace

the only embracer

that can fill up my void

death

and i need lots of practice

and a deep understanding as i

never been hugged before

i need to hug a lot

if i

if i

wanna be fully embraced

by death